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Mmm, it was hot as hell, so I couldn't sleep. I think the baby felt the heat too. He was moving around like mad all night. I kept waking up every hour or so. Its so strange to feel a hard lump in your abdomen, and softness around it. Then to feel it move to the other side. Like aliens or something...

I haven't updated in a bit.

Well, me and Jay went to see Harry Potter. That was good. Jay was more excited about the nachos. How strange that we both were talking about the nachos an hour before the movie, only to leave the movie and think "Those were good nachos."

The movie fell a little short of the nachos, but still was quite good itself. Kinda long. We were both getting fidgety. I almost cried. >< At the part where the doggies are fighting. *cringes* I dont like to hear/see dogs fighting. Makes me sick to my stomach. Bah.


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Shanelle's boyfriend broke up with her. She came here crying, and me, being bad with advice and people who are crying, just stared at her. I'm very bad at comforting people. I attempted to make her happy by showing her the newly born kittens, but it made her more sad.

She was just like "This is probably how big your baby is." and then drifted onto the subject of her miscarriage. ><

Shanelle has never been without a man for.. what? a month? She needs to find herself. Find out who SHE is. She needs to find her own hobbies, and dreams. Stop revolving her life around whatever guy she's dating. I wish she would get a hobby or something. I tried to tell her to start drawing again. She used to be really good at it. But she just looked at me sadly, and shrugged.

It is pretty early, but they were moving kind fast. I mean, dating 4 months, then already having a baby? Thats not even enough time to have any serious problems in a relationship.

Me and Jay were dating a year before we hit the problems. If you can survive the bad times, then its worth it. Plus, I know for a fact, that even if Jay's not here for me, he'd be here for his baby.

Unlike Peachy. He's deaf okay, not that its saying he's a bad person, just saying, it'd be 10x harder for him to take care of a child. Plus, he wasn't even sure he wanted it. When I told Jay I was pregnant, he was more excited than I was.

I just... I saw all this stuff coming, and I dont know how to help her without hurting her. I mean, this time, I just comforted her, and didn't tell her to the extent of how I really felt. She didn't need to hear that so soon, but after awhile, i know its going to come out.

I just, I wanna see her pick herself up, and live a life without a guy involved in it. Maybe then she'll finally be happy.


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Dont ask me why I do that now, I just do. *shrugs* I should have taken Jay to work. Now I'm wide awake, and will have no car for the rest of the day. =\

Oh well. I'm gonna go raid the fridge. I'm so hungry I could vomit.

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emylove4u
Jun. 13th, 2004 03:12 pm (UTC)
o.0 0.o -.0 0.- >O.0> [ ] b.d

umm i thought he was good guy ^^

well i do feel sad for shannele and i mean we don't have right to speak
i mean it's easy for us to say it's okay because we have our b/f's our company
and now she doesn't y.y i would be sad too
just remember the time when jay left you and how baad and horrible you felt no longer having him
of course her's was only 4 months but it meant alot to her

yea i mean how do i say this...

i'm glad i found mike and stuff and i mean i love him forever
but i kinda did wish i hadn't gotten in a serious relationship YET
i mean everyone is so worried about finding THE ONE
that they don't find THEMSELVES first
i know cuz i was one of them
i should of taken time to gfo to a university meet new people and enjoy my life i mean always have a b/f once and a while for company but nothing too serious
i mean god has the one for all of us...so why worry?
and the guy that truly loves you will come after you and never EVER EVER let you go *cough* mike* *cough*
i have freedom and all but i still think i'm waay to young to get married or anything
of course miek can be my b/f for a loong time till i fufill all my dreams
that is if he is willing to wait for me
/sigh

HARRY POTTER RODE A CHOCOBO! HOW CAN YOU NOT LOOVE THAT MOVIE!
A WHITE CHOCOBO! all i could think if when i saw it
( me and mike watching movie)
* points silly at screen and gets up*
" A CHOCOBO! THAT IS A CHOCOBO!.."
MIKE- " UMM em sit down 0.0"
me "BUT THEY STOLE THAT FROM FF11! IT'S CHOCOBO...
=/...i guess noone waqs as excited as i was but you have to remember i practically LIVE in ff11 right now and ride chocobos everyday!
=/..UNTIL I START SCHOOL NEXT WEEK AND FINALLY GET THAT JOB (GRR) TIS what i do...i type soo much
oh well!
i bought a microphone so me and my buddies can speak while in battle
and be liek " HEY SILVER LOOK OUT A FLYING CHOCOBO! AND THATS HARRY POTTER!"
LOL LOL LOL /sigh
me< going insane!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so yea o.0;
these pills ARE approved by a doctor but i dunno if he was all up there
* gets on harry potters chocobo and laughs hys, at harry as i go INTO THE DISTANCE*
HA! I HAVE CHOCOBO GREENS
raye
Jun. 13th, 2004 06:36 pm (UTC)
haha, it's not a chocobo.
shinigami_02
Jun. 14th, 2004 08:33 am (UTC)
lmao a chocobo?

Raye's right.. its a hypogriff (hysi)... chocobos are big yellow birds. O_o; Then again, I can see the resemblence.

And yeah... about the Shanelle thing. It is easy to say its okay, but, as you said, I've also been there. When me and Jay broke up, not only was I alone, but I no longer had a place to stay. You have to think positive in those situtations. Although I was extrememly sad, I did the best I could to pick myself up, and keep going. She just needs that same outlook. Crying isn't going to help anything. Trust me. X_x;
emylove4u
Jun. 14th, 2004 09:47 pm (UTC)
yea,

I KNOW IT'S A HYO SOMTHING BUT IT LOOKS LIKE C A CHOCOBO! and not all chocobo's are yellow, they can be white,green,blue,red,even GOLD!!!!!!!!!!
i know becaus eme and mike raced them for 6 nights in a row o.0 on ff 4 no was it 7? hmm dunno it was one of those very annoying music too

harry potter coopied final fantasy!!!!!!!!!!!!!
here is how:
chocobo
school of magic
quitich er somthing it resembles that from final fantasy's game RESEMBLES but a lil changed
THE KILLING TREE!
and well thats all i can think of right now...0.0
okay so it doesn't really resemble it -.-
HUMOR ME!
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